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Writing this book was a personally emotional journey
for me. I have many friends in the D/s lifestyle who helped me with this. I
hope when you read it you will get a true picture of a D/s relationship, one
that is full of respect and emotion.
Beyond Addiction
Desiree
Holt
Sequel to Dangerous Addiction, from
Something Wicked This Way Comes, Volume 1
When Fallon Crowe discovered her submissive side, she indulged
it fully, reveling in her erotic nature—until she stepped into the brutally
possessive world of Brian Willoughby. More than a year after she was literally
dragged away from his abusive clutches, Fallon is finally building a new life
with Cord Jamieson, a Dom who reminds her that punishment can be loving, pain
an aphrodisiac.
But when Fallon unexpectedly runs into Brian, he reawakens
an addiction that never quite died. Now she’s torn between the caring
relationship she’s established with Cord, and Brian’s darkly mesmerizing
lifestyle that goes beyond safe, sane and consensual.
The choice is Fallon’s—the wrong one might destroy her
completely.
Inside Scoop: This story features an abusive
scene from a power-hungry man who’s perverted the lifestyle for his own sick
pleasure. It may be too intense for some readers.
A Romantica® BDSM erotic romance from Ellora’s Cave
By reading any further, you are
stating that you are at least 18 years of age. If you are under the age of 18,
please exit this site.
An Excerpt From: BEYOND ADDICTION
Copyright © DESIREE HOLT, 2014
All Rights Reserved, Ellora's Cave Publishing, Inc.
Cord hung his Stetson on a peg in the back hall and toed off
his boots. They were covered in mud and various other substances and badly
needed cleaning, but at the moment he was just too tired. He and the hands had
spent most of the day riding fence line and making sure every pasture was
secure before his new shipment of cattle arrived. They’d been a steal at an
auction and he couldn’t resist. The bank had extended a substantial line of
credit and that was the perfect reason to tap into it.
Everything was coming together much better than he could
have hoped. The herd was finally at the size it needed to be and in the spring
there would be new calves. The pastures of coastal hay were in good shape. And
the work on the event center was nearly finished. Next week, he’d work with the
hands who’d be leading trail rides and giving lessons and offering other guest
activities, and oversee the finishing touches to the stables.
At least he could relax where the party was concerned.
Fallon was working her magic with an ease that he admired. He smiled as he
thought about how much pleasure she brought to all areas of his life. After the
party, after the post-event details were seen to, he planned to take her away
for a long weekend where he could tie her to the bed and pleasure both of them
in as many ways as he could dream up.
Just the thought of that was enough to make his cock harden
and strain against the fly of his jeans.
In the bedroom, he stripped off his clothes and dumped them
in the hamper, then stepped into the bathroom and turned on the shower. He was
so aroused he was almost tempted to take himself in hand and smooth out the
edge while the hot water poured over him. Then he thought about Fallon, who was
due home very soon, and decided he had much better ways to satisfy his lust.
He was just wrapping the bath towel around his hips when he
heard her moving around in the bedroom. He opened the bathroom door,
smiling—until he took a good look at her and his body tensed. Nearly all the
color was gone from her face, her soft-pink lipstick seeming like a slash of
vivid red in comparison. Her movements as she undressed were jerky, not smooth,
as usual. Her body language was that of someone who had been through an
emotional wringer.
What worried him most was the lack of eye contact. That was
so out of character, at least for the woman he was used to.
“Fallon?” He moved closer. “Did something happen today? Your
lunch with Claire? Something happen with the errands?”
She just shook her head and continued removing her clothing
like a robot.
What the fuck?
And then out of nowhere, it hit him.
She’d seen him.
The bastard who’d fucked up her life. Fucked up her. Had she run into him or had she
deliberately sought him out? Shit, he didn’t know how he’d handle it if it was
the latter. It took all his willpower not to smash his fist against the wall.
Pulling himself together, he used his best Dom voice.
“Fallon. Look at me. Now!” he snapped when she continued to look down at her
feet.
She lifted her face to his, her expression a mixture of
regret and disgust, but didn’t meet his gaze.
“You saw him today, right? That asshole you refuse to talk
about?”
She nodded.
“Was it deliberate? Did you call him?” He was barely holding
his temper in check. “Answer me, girl.”
“No, Sir.” She still hadn’t looked at him. From the moment
he spoke she’d been in full submissive mode, only her attitude was more one of
defeat than supplication.
What the fuck happened
out there today? She was doing so well? We were doing so well.
Something had suddenly changed and he damn well wanted to
know what it was, although he had his suspicions. He used every ounce of
control to contain the rage erupting inside him.
“Did you run into him somewhere?”
“Yes.” The word was so soft he had to strain to hear it.
Despite his instruction, she lowered her chin.
“Goddamn it, Fallon.” He hauled in a breath and clenched his
fists, fighting for control. “Look at you. You’re a wreck. Did you run into
Brian Willoughby?”
This time her answer was a whisper. “Yes.”
Cord felt as if someone had punched him in the stomach.
He let the next breath out slowly. He would have to do this
very carefully.
“I want you to look at me, girl.” He made his voice as firm
and steady as possible. “Keep your eyes on me and answer my questions. Do you
understand?”
She stood before him, nude, stripped down to the bare
individual. If she had any defenses against either her situation or his anger
they were completely submerged.
“I asked you a question.” He took a step closer. “Do you
understand me?”
“Yes, Sir.” Her voice was still so low he had to strain to
hear it.
“Tell me what happened today. Where did you see him?”
“A-At La Cantera. The valet parking. I didn’t even see him
until he was right there beside me.”
“And did you talk to him?”
Haltingly, fingers twisting together, she related their
conversation. With each word, his rage grew. He could visualize the scene—the
smooth, domineering bully using his magnetism to mind-fuck a woman who still
harbored traces of an addiction.
Based on the little she was telling him of their encounter,
Cord was beginning to realize that in leaving Brian, Fallon had challenged him.
Challenged his control.
And Brian Willoughby didn’t seem like a man who would let
that go over easily.
“And how did you leave it with him?” He was almost afraid to
hear the answer.
“I—I ran from him, Sir.” She swallowed audibly. “I ran into
the restaurant.”
“Did he follow you?”
She shook her head then, apparently realizing he wanted
words, said, “No. Sir.”
So many conflicting emotions were at war within him, Cord
didn’t know where to begin. The first thing he planned to do was put on some
pants. He couldn’t possibly discipline a sub wearing only a towel. He left her
standing there, fingers linked together, gaze lowered again, while he dug out a
clean pair of boxer briefs and some jeans. He turned his back until he’d
fastened the snap on his jeans and tugged up the zipper. He had to be careful
that his anger didn’t bend his control.
“I can tell just by your attitude,” he said, “that you’re
expecting a punishment session. Am I right?”
“Yes, Sir.” Her voice trembled. “I deserve it. I want you to
punish me.”
“Not until you tell me what you did wrong. We aren’t playing
for pleasure here. Not at the moment.”
She studied the floor and clasped her hands behind her back.
“I didn’t tell you all about him before.”
He could barely hear her. That would never do. “When I ask
you a question, girl, I expect you to answer in a loud, clear voice. So tell me
again why I’m going to paddle that sweet ass of yours.”
“Because I hid things from you.” Louder this time. “Because
I didn’t let you know everything about him.” She wet her lips. “About B-Brian.
About our relationship. Because I wasn’t going to tell you about t-today.”
“And why is that important?” he prodded.
“I should never keep secrets from my Master. Secrets that
might…affect our relationship.”
“That’s correct,” he nodded. “And this is a big one. A very
big one. Because Brain Willoughby screwed up your head and I need to know how
to straighten it out.” He paused. “We can’t make this work unless we have
complete honesty between us. You need to have that impressed upon you.”
“Yes, Sir.” She bobbed her head. “That’s why I need to be
punished.”
“No.” He ground his teeth. “Not tonight. I will never punish
you for what someone else did to you.”
He loved the way Fallon embraced punishment, riding the edge
of pleasure and pain that drove her to intense orgasm. But that was always
within the context of the bedroom play. This was the first time he had ever
seen her stripped down to almost nothing emotionally, pleading with him to
reprimand her inappropriately, for something that was beyond her control.
But this situation was fraught with danger. He had to make
her understand the depth of his feelings for her, and understand that punishment
for running into someone completely by accident was cruelty, and he was not a
cruel man.
Still, he had to handle this in a way that illustrated who
was in control.
He blew out another breath. “On your knees. Hands behind
your back. Forehead to the floor.”
He watched as she arranged herself as directed, bent low,
ass in the air. The slight discomfort would serve as the punishment she thought
she needed. He sat at the foot of the bed, hands on his knees. And steeled
himself for what was to come.
“Now,” he said. “I want every single detail, what happened
from the moment you bumped into him everything you said and felt. Leave nothing
out. And speak up, so I can hear you.”
Fallon’s halting recitation of the run-in with the fucking
asshole made him grind his teeth in silent rage. Her description of the man’s
effect on her, of her fear, as well as the addiction she battled, made him want
to shoot someone. Preferably Willoughby.
Cord was a well-trained Dom. He’d studied at a couple of the
best dungeons in Dallas and observed other Doms carefully. Safe, sane and
consensual had been drummed into him. Respect. Negotiation. For every D/s
relationship, there was a different degree of intensity, different definitions
of how far to take things. But the basic rules were always in place. If anyone
violated them, the D/s community policed its own.
To hear that Brian, someone who obviously had only a sketchy
knowledge of the philosophy and practices, had subverted BDSM because he could,
made Cord angrier than he ever remembered being. He’d never understood how any
man could so extremely abuse a privilege granted to him. Listening to Fallon
made his blood boil.
When she was finished, he sat for a moment, gaze fixed on
her bent form. He wanted to pull her into his arms, soothe her, tell her they
would get through this together and everything would be fine. But he knew that
she wouldn’t believe him. So much of her emotionally destructive upbringing
still lingered, still fed her insecurities. Punishment was like an anchor to her,
but it had to be for the right reasons.
And tonight it would have to take a different from.
“And that’s all of it?” he asked.
“Yes. All of it.” Her voice was muffled by the carpet.
“Yes, who?”
“Yes, Sir.”
“And he will never intrude into our lives again, correct? If
thoughts of him distress you, come to me at once and I’ll talk you through
them. If you run into him, you call me right away. If you need me to pick you
up because he’s upset you, I’ll be in my car before we’re off the phone.
Understood?”
“Understood.”
He didn’t remind her again that she hadn’t used the
honorific. She was in enough emotional distress as it was.
“All right. Get up, girl,” he ordered, doing his best to
hold on to his own emotions. He had to physically restrain himself from racing out
of the house, finding Brian Willoughby and strangling him with his bare hands
for causing so much anguish and distress to this very special woman.
He watched her balance herself carefully as she managed to
get to her feet, her equilibrium off-kilter because she couldn’t use her hands.
When she was standing before him, he cupped her face with his palms. He hoped
when she looked into his eyes she could see the depth of the love he felt for
her, as well as the respect. He chose his words carefully.
“No punishment tonight, Fallon. At least not the kind you’re
asking for. I think today did enough damage to you.”
“But—”
He touched a finger to her lips. “Never argue with your
Master. Tonight it’s all about doing what I can do to wipe away this blackness
gripping you.”
She wrinkled her forehead. “Sir?”
He could see she was confused, but the kind of pain she
expected was the last thing she needed right now. He might want to beat every
last trace of Brian Willoughby from her body but that would be irresponsible on
his part. How could he punish someone who was so visibly punishing herself? He
was smart enough to know that he couldn’t erase one kind of brutality with
another, no matter how lovingly delivered. In her fragile state, he was sure if
he did what she asked it would destroy her, and he loved her too much for that.
But tenderness was as much a part of being a Dom as pain and
punishment, both for pleasure and discipline. Tonight it was important to show
her how much she meant to him and what a special place she held in his heart.
Had he taken the time before now, he wondered, to let her know his depth of
feelings? Or had he just assumed from everything they did that she got the
message? After the event center’s grand opening, when she filled in the missing
details for him, he would decide how to move forward. Right now his mission was
to subject her to torture of the sweetest kind.
“Perhaps it’s my fault for not making sure you understood
exactly how important you are to me,” he told her, putting as much feeling into
his words as he could. “How much I value you. How I feel about you. That’s what
this will be about.” He stroked his fingers lightly on her cheek. “Now. I want
you on the bed, flat on your back. I have a specific kind of torture in mind.”
When she was situated as commanded, he knelt between her
thighs and braced a hand on either side of her. For a long moment he stared at
her still-pale face, saw the anguish and conflict in her eyes and made a silent
vow to protect her from this asshole no matter what.
Provided, of course, she let him.
Known the
world over as The Oldest Living Erotica Author, and referred to by USA Today as
the Nora Roberts of erotic romance, Desiree Holt
is three
times a finalist for an EPIC E-Book Award (and a winner in 2014), a nominee for
a Romantic Times Reviewers Choice Award, winner of the first 5 Heart Sweetheart
of the Year Award at The Romance Studio as well as twice a CAPA Award for best
BDSM book of the year, winner of the Holt Medallion, multiple winner of the
Whipped Cream Book of the Week Award, the Love Romances Café Readers choice
Award and is published by five different houses. She has been featured on CBS Sunday Morning and in The Village Voice, The Daily Beast, USA Today and numerous other national
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